Last week I shared about my spirited child, this week I’m sharing about my sensitive child and how she has grown me.
I know, your hand is still all pins and needles from holding your little one’s hand until she finally went to sleep. You may have brushed the tears from your own face just as many times as you wiped her tears and reassured her that you were there. That everything is okay.
It is okay. It will be okay.
I know that you have walked miles with her, that you know her instinctive patterns not only because she has your personality but because you have spent so much time with her. Holding her, wearing her, being with her.
You have come home early from evenings out, you have scooped her up after hearing her wail in the child care room, and you have kissed away her fears.
You cheer her on in every new stage and you soak up her littleness, her need to be close to you. It won’t always be like this.
She’s already changing, exploring her world with confidence and coming back to her safe haven when she needs a retreat from the big world.
You have loved on her and she knows that she is secure. She knows that tears are a good thing, that emotion is not to be feared or squashed but something to be known and appreciated.
She has taught you to disregard the words of people who will say all manner of unkind words because they don’t know you and they don’t know her. She has taught you that it is okay to leave a crying baby and go cry in the bathroom, send a desperate text to your sister, and then soothe her tears. Once again.
She has taught you the bliss of sleeping an hour and then several hours and then a whole night. She has made you aware of the deep blessing of good health and the importance of guarding stressful situations and their damaging affect.
You sit and watch as she climbs everywhere, says all manner of things, and mimics everything. You breathe it in and you hug her close when she comes running to her.
Savour it all, the tears will stop and she won’t always need you so close. But for now, you’re her safe haven, and she thinks you are pretty awesome.
You are. Breathe it all in.